Chloe and I were awoken at 11:30pm to be told that she would be going back into surgery in 2.5 hours.
She has had two really bad days and nights. Even with all the pain meds she has been lying in bed moaning and crying.
Dr. Simon will be doing exploratory surgery with a possible resection of the colon and a colostomy.
I read these two paragraphs tonight before kissing Chloe good night. How appropriate after a nurse and I were crying together this afternoon about Chloe's situation.
Philip Yancey, Disappointment with God, writes:
No matter how we rationalize, God will sometimes seem unfair from the perspective of a person trapped in time. Only at the end of time, after we have attained God's level of viewing, after every evil has been punished or forgiven, every illness healed, and the entire universe restored-only then will fairness reign. Then we will understand what role is played by evil, and by the Fall, and by natural law, in an "unfair" event like the death of a child. until then, we will not know, and can only trust in a God who does know.
We remain ignorant of many details, not because God enjoys keeping us in the dark, but because we have not the faculties to absorb so much light. At a single glance God knows what the world is about and how history will end. But we time-bound creatures have only the most primitive manner of understanding: we can let time pass. Not until history has run its course will we understand how "all things work together for good." Faith means believing in advance what will only make sense in reverse.
Time to get some coffee and wait for my little one to come out of surgery. Praying it is a success and we get back home before the three week marker.
Many Blessings,
Amy
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