Do I feel sorry for myself?
Absolutely NOT!
I look at the families I have grown to love. Families I have met through adoption forums. Some of these families who have grown to magnanimous proportions desiring to be courageously noble in mind and heart and willing to give of themselves and their possessions. Families that have grown from 2 to 19 and more in just a small amount of time. So, do I feel boastful of having more than the national average of 1.88 children in our family?
Again, absolutely, NOT. I feel selfish.
I have truly come to understand what the Bible verse Matthew 16:25 means:
"For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will find it."
Some can not wait for retirement, when the kids leave the house, or when they have nothing on their calendar except what they want to put on it.
Yes, there is day or two when I feel that way. Sometimes there are weeks at a time when I feel that way! However, if my husband had not led us down the yellow brick road of adoption this second time, I would not be saying, "There is no place like home" to our little Chloe right now.
I thank God for all the hospital stays, infections, tubes, and operations we have weathered with this little girl. We faithfully walked through and were carried through by the strength of God and your prayers to celebrate this day.
Our little Chloe has been granted the gift of a full life. Her nephrologist is so pleased with her healing. Based on the blood work taken two months ago and the measurements taken yesterday; Chloe has grown 2 inches, has gained back all her lost weight from being sick, blood pressure remains normal, she will not have to start taking growth hormones, and her kidneys are functioning as normal kidneys! I can not wait to get the results from the blood work taken yesterday.
She is our little princess and we have definitely won the lotto!
She is absolutely beautiful and I am so happy to hear she's healing up so well!
ReplyDeleteLook at her! Emma Kate keeps having me pull the post up to smile at her photo! We are so pleased for her progress, Amy. And love reading your heart in words.
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